Building Blocks

Part of any new path is the journey it takes to get where you wanna go. It's easy to get discouraged or to look at the mountain and feel the pangs of despair. But, I'm finding, sometimes it's better to look back to see how far you've come. Everything takes time, often more time than we'd like. When I began this particular journey, I did so not really anticipating the emotional roller coaster it would eventually become. I say this, humorously of course, but it's true! It's easy, as an adult, to forget what it's like to start at the beginning... the be the newb, the rookie. And once you become the newbie, you realize how difficult it can be to have to make mistakes. No one ever tells you that, making mistakes in adulthood seems painful sometimes. It's one of the most vulnerable things we do; and the more we put ourselves out there, the more vulnerable it feels. It's necessary for real change - Lasting change! Growth. Happiness. And purpose.

With that said however, mistakes are life. Mistakes ARE the building blocks. Nobody ever gets anywhere without them. So, if you're on a new journey today or find yourself on a new one soon, just remember, don't sweat the mistakes - learn from them. Grow. And change. Let those mistakes guide you to be the best possible version of who you want and need to be!

Props to whomever created this image. Creator unknown

Props to whomever created this image. Creator unknown

Trial Shoots

Two down, four to go! Free trial photo shoots have proved to be just that! Lots of learning curves and growth. I am incredibly grateful for people who reached out to be involved and who are willing to take a chance on me. I am learning new skills in camera, in editing, and online via the website. I am learning how to grow as a business, how to market and advertise myself as a brand, and how to provide quality images with best resolution. They are equally complicated in their own unique ways. Keeps me on my toes! I am also learning what I like in my own editing process and what I do not like. And everyday I am growing toward who I want to be as a photographer and an artist. Although it has been keeping me incredibly busy, I am enjoying the process!



Owning The Process

So, I came to a point - a crossroad with photography. It left me paralyzed with questions and fear and doubt. It was decision time. I had to decide... do I want to stay small and maintain photography as a hobby? Or, do I dare greatly and allow myself to grow? To follow an unknown path? What will happen if I choose? Who will I become and will I be content with her? What would I regret more? I took the time. For a few months, I put the camera away. I stopped. I didn't think. Not for a while. I went back to the hum of everyday life and I allowed myself to stop thinking about it. I put guilt and regret and fear and curiosity on the shelf and I went back to life as it were. But, then something happened. I couldn't stop thinking about it. That little light shone through... that little voice - "but what if you can?"

As a result, After a few months, I picked up my camera and again, I played around with it. To my surprise, I picked up right where I left off; amazed at what I would do with it. I realized, with conviction, this makes me feel happy. I began to let go of the comparisons, the self doubt, the fear, the guilt, the what-ifs... etc, etc, etc. I laid them down. Without thought or words, I gave myself permission. I walked to the proverbial edge, I looked over the side, I let my thoughts and feelings float away, and I lept.